insomnia

i've been feeling this way for a long time. terribly numb in the head, a blind pain that doesn't leave, that just stays.

i wish i could ignore it. it gets to me like nothing else. and yet i'm numb to it. numb to everything. if i weren't numb, this pain would be even greater. i suppose. but this makes me numb to everything. a headache that will never cease. i don't know what's wrong with me, but nothing's right. maybe i'm ill. and i'll not get better.

i don't know what to think.

i can't sleep, i can't think, i can't get through a day without blacking out.