amsterdam afternoon

we're not letting the housekeeping in. we're too tired to leave the room. the more we sleep, the more tired we are. um....yeah. it's dreadful. i need a lot more rest but i'm hooked to the computer. soon i'll sleep. yes. then i'll have a beer downstairs. i've been feeling like a mojito or something though. tomorrow i believe we're leaving the hotel for another one. i don't remember my dreams. and the guy is coming by with our ticket tomorrow. i suppose rock en seine will work out for him. good job, mate. :)

Amsterdam...again

I like my hair today.


Because of the softened (aka low pressure) water system in my old house, I never felt like I was rinsing my hair completely. For the first time in a long time, my hair's felt great.


I still have a sinus headache. Comes with plane rides. I've taken too many. I slept like 11 hours plus the time in the plane.


We are in Amsterdam, just outside the city, closer to the airport. On the 27th, we're moving into the city.


Today we are just relaxing and organizing...coming into Amsterdam was hell with the luggage in its state.


Blah. I need food.

Is down the new up?

I'm sure of my intentions in this world. Despite failing to get a job in my two months in a stable situation, I've decided to move on to the option that I've had to learn the art of teaching English to Speakers of Other Languages.

It involves a 4 week course in Spain, which I would presumably start in October. It would be a trade, something that I can use for 6 months starting right away. I don't know how long this arrangement would be for, but it'll add to my resume and I can take advantage of it.

But for 6 months to a year, I'll be in Europe.

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the age of the insomniac

is it possible that in this day and age, we are actually scared to sleep? i've met more than my share of insomniacs and late sleepers. streetlights, freeways clogged with midnight drivers, electricity, the humming of appliances, i don't think i can blame them. i've often been awake through the twilight and the gloaming, a beautiful end to a beautiful night before i get a good rest for the day. maybe i need melatonin, maybe it'd do me horrors, nightmares, the like. i can't sleep. i haven't been able to get to bed at a decent hour in many a moon. what has happened to me?

insomnia

i've been feeling this way for a long time. terribly numb in the head, a blind pain that doesn't leave, that just stays.

i wish i could ignore it. it gets to me like nothing else. and yet i'm numb to it. numb to everything. if i weren't numb, this pain would be even greater. i suppose. but this makes me numb to everything. a headache that will never cease. i don't know what's wrong with me, but nothing's right. maybe i'm ill. and i'll not get better.

i don't know what to think.

i can't sleep, i can't think, i can't get through a day without blacking out.

down is the new up

i have a lot of email addresses accumulated for all my photobuckets and whatever else i was interested in at the time. never did forget them, i suppose.

photobuckets:
transdimensional http://s4.photobucket.com/albums/y150/transdimensional/ password's tigmoni
transdimensional2 http://s6.photobucket.com/albums/y247/transdimensional2/
transdimensional3 http://s6.photobucket.com/albums/y240/transdimensional3/
transdimensional4 http://s7.photobucket.com/albums/y293/transdimensional4/
moralbankruptcy http://s18.photobucket.com/albums/b125/moralbankruptcy/
macpodbores http://s23.photobucket.com/albums/b391/macpodbores/
honeymoonisover http://s16.photobucket.com/albums/b39/honeymoonisover/
brushthecobwebs http://s23.photobucket.com/albums/b366/brushthecobwebs/

i'll do something more with them one day. till then, i'm just...a complete mess.