part of me just wants to write

just to fill that hole between the pictures and the post title. things like that make me feel so bad! i don't know why, maybe i'm just taking the piss and don't realize it.

anyway, i just want to write. i want to be able to convey everything in a few paragraphs so that when i go to sleep, none of this will bother me. i just want to get it all out.

so i've been feeling for a certain someone despite the absolute hopelessness about it. it's easier to say that you should just look for happiness and not for someone to make you happy, but i've always had a problem with separating myself from the idea that it could work.

i mean obviously it didn't.

i don't feel like writing anymore. just listening, crying, whatever.

that's what happens when i tell it to my blog. :(